I want this to stop. I want a break. I want a break from life.
I’m tired.
I’m tired of being strong. I’m tired of fighting to understand. I’m tired of looking for a meaning. I’m tired of being understanding to everyone around. I’m tired of keeping myself smile and pushing myself every time I feel like falling and failing. I’m tired of being kind…as i am tired of hiding all my pain. I’m tired of working myself to be a better me, of looking for best versions of myself. I’m tired of looking who I was in order to create who I want to be. I’m tired of pretending I am not pretending…I’m tired of not allowing myself to be wrong. And I’m tired of not understanding why…
Sometimes i’m jealous on people who are going through deep meaningful pain. Those that have truly heartbreaking dramas in their life.
At least they have a reason to feel desperate, lost and at the point of giving up. They have a reason for not having the power, for felling tired.
They have a reason to feel the pain and wanting the break.
But I don’t have any real reason.
The only reason is the simple fact that…I exist.
Life through my eyes 